2012/07/05

I'll follow you into the dark

and soon there'll be no tears left they were ours to give to whomever  finally they are the most precious jewellery we possess so never apologise again
finally you set your own limits
 
You left me here because I told you to. You are about to start a new life, to find yourself in the giant maze of life. You have helped me to find my own way, to keep on searching for the truth and to discover the lies that got in my way. I never thought I would find a friend like you and I knew destiny would part our ways, sooner or later. I know my words and actions were not very wise and I wish we had met in a different place and time, and yet I'm thankful for the time we spent together. Farewell my friend. Good luck in Neverland, may all your dreams come true.
 

2012/07/03

Birthday nights, horrific frights

...and once again I'm crying.


I must have stopped breathing before I even thought of it. 
O glorious day that you have never been, why can't you just let me live? 
Why do you have to rip my heart out? Why do you have to laugh at my weakness? 
Why does the one person who I thought understood me remotely have to alienate me completely? 
Why does it have to be this way? And why won't you ever respond?
I'm shattered.

2012/06/24

About as good as it gets

(The story of)
The lost stork and the desperate girl

It took about as long for my heart to explode as it takes for a star to die. The same effect really, both very spectacular and yet unnoticed by billions. Heated up in a long progress, got bigger and - vanished. Left nothing to wonder about. Nothing but nothingness. I can't tell if stars feel pain but my explosion was such a sudden thing that I only came to think about it a while later.
It started with a couple of fatal nights a couple of weeks before that. Suffering. And it ended as soon as a stork got lost in my garden. He immediately dug for - and swallowed - a mole which must have been a matter of confusion as I don't picture furry, muddy moles to be very delicious. 
He looked around, roamed around and spread his own confusion so it would strike me. Mission accomplished, Sir! I never used to be superstitious but this really made me hope my ancestors had been wrong about the stork/baby thingy. 
Poor storky got chased off shortly afterwards, maybe he had only realised he had chosen the wrong person. Turns out, no one I know is going to have a baby too soon. Plus, we had him get rid of one of our countless moles - what a useless "skadedjur" anyway! 

I'm going to take it as a warning and hope for the next time the two of us meet to be the right time. So long, good old bird! I'll be off, mending my heart in the meantime.